Typewriter Series #252 by Tyler Knott Gregson
I’m going to try something new today … it’s a work in progress so, please be patient with me.
I didn’t know that life as a Super Hero was going to be so lonely. If I would have known, maybe I would have left everyone on their own. I can’t fix everyone’s problems or lives. It just doesn’t work that way!
I sit here in the sun, wondering… Wondering why? Why didn’t I just walk away. Especially knowing none of you are going to help me, by helping yourselves.
A drink in hand, wondering why I shatter myself for you. I drink in the sunlight and walk the streets in the screaming darkness. I stare in to a drink that will never touch my lips. Never dance gracefully along my tongue.
I scream in to the light while clawing at the darkness. A Super Hero going crazy. Going crazy hearing your voice in my head. Calling out to me. Taunting my waking moments and haunting my soul.
I once reached for you in my sleep. Yet in reality, you were never there. Long gone, lost in the darkness of my imagination. Slipping in to long gone memories, I see you standing before me. Are you real? I have shattered my life to keep you safe. For WHAT?! When I have lost you to the mists.
On the outside I wear a mask. A mask to hide from you. A mask of confidence. When I wear this mask, you all know me. You know I am there to help make things right. To make YOUR life better. People cheer for me and call my name, as if they know me.
WHAT do THEY know?! What do you know about me?? The REAL me… the person lost behind the mask.
I had forgotten the feel of the Sun’s kiss
of the gentle breeze caressing my skin
the grass tickling my feet
I had forgotten the rich spice sent of the summer air
flowers in bloom
the sounds of the leaves
rustling in the wind
I had forgotten how to sit still and listen
to the many birds calling out
the bees buzzing by
the water lapping at the shore
I had forgotten how to quiet my mind
and become one with nature
to join my energy to hers
I sit here in remembrance of all I have forgotten
of all I want to be.
Dreaming in Dreams
just when things seem to be so good
just when I start walking in the light
just when I start feeling safe in your love
things start to fall a part
the light turns to shadow
my steps start to falter
I want the good
I want to feel the heat of the light
I want to love and be loved
~ Dreaming ~
watching all the green things come back to life.
An amazing feeling.
The Sun heats my soul as much as it heats my skin.
Soon to be spending time at the lake,
where I can breath in the fresh water air.
I can let it all fill me up as I drift far from here.
Watching the clouds drift away
wishing I could float away with them
Feeling one with all
being touched by all
feeling at peace with in myself
I just love who I find down by the river relaxing … ;-)
My son’s band … Before they broke up ..
Earth beneath our feet,
we tread upon the past; on
all that’s come before.